When Did I Stop Looking at the Symbols in the Cards?

I decided to do a Celtic Cross spread for my work situation with my newly trimmed Tarot of the Magical Forest, by Leo Tang, asking HOW am I ever going to get caught up??

Since this deck is based on the RWS images and doesn’t vary much (relatively speaking), I didn’t even think about the fact that there aren’t borders.  As I was laying out the cards, my first thought as each card went down was, “Geez, what’s with all the courts?”  (Courts have never been my friends…)  Then, the closer I looked, the more I realized that I had to actually look at the cards to figure out which ones I had drawn.

When did this happen?  It occurred to me that when I draw cards I read the title and make assumptions.  When did I stop looking at the actual images??  (At least with RWS-based decks.)

I admit that when I use a deck that is not based on the RWS (my learning deck), I read the title and then look at the image.  And I’ll usually let the images speak to me, trying to see if they fit into my understanding of the basic card meanings I’ve learned.  (Sometimes they do and sometimes it’s a stretch.)  But to look at the RWS-based image without titles and question the image I was looking at was surprisingly unsettling.  And eye-opening!

Celtic Cross for July 3, 2013 - How will I ever get caught up at work?

Celtic Cross for July 3, 2013 – How will I ever get caught up at work?

For instance, I could look at the little characters on the backs of bigger animals and know those are Knights.  I can see the stance of the kitten below the crossed cards in the middle and know it’s a Page.  But when I saw the little froggie on a throne, my first thought was King because it’s looking straight at me.  But what’s that beside the throne?  A black cat, which means this is the Queen of Wands, which changed my take on the card in this position completely.

Then the card above the Queen of Wands looked at first like the Queen of Swords (though she’s facing the wrong direction), until I saw the balanced scales in her hand.  Huh.  So, others see me as Justice, which does make sense as I always make an effort to be fair to all, separating myself from any emotions I might feel in a heated situation.  Plus, if I had to match up a court with the Queen of Swords (my significator and the card I thought it was), it would be Justice (which, by the way, is my Birth card in Mary K. Greer’s system).

It was an interesting exercise, and one I think I’ll try to keep going with.  On Fortuna’s Oracle, I’m using the Inner Realms Tarot, by Saleire, published by Schiffer, but I think I’ll continue to do my personal dailies with this trimmed deck.  Maybe I’ll even trim one of my International Icon Tarots….  or would that be sacrilegious?  😉


Readers Studio 2014, Here I Come!

At the end of April, my husband took the boys to C2E2 in Chicago (some comic book entertainment conference) and I saw my chance…  For years I always felt guilty about wanting to go to the Readers Studio because of the expense of what my family sees as a solitary vacation just for me.  But since they got to take their vacation, that means that I get my own next year!  🙂  (<– big smile!)

So this month I signed up to attend Readers Studio 2014 and I couldn’t be more excited!  I decided that I want to drive because I have more freedom with how many decks I can bring.  I’ll even have room to bring the plethora of decks that need new homes.  Shoot, if I can’t find trades, I’ll just give them away, since most of them were Robyn’s decks, and she always gifted her decks to others.

I used my iPod’s Tarot of Prague folder (using the shuffle-slideshow feature) and “drew” cards, asking for a message from Robyn/starladyxvii:

2013-6-22 RS14 starladyxvii

I drew The Fool from another deck just a few days ago, and I saw it as something new starting up very soon.  And here he is again.  It’s time to put on a fresh tarot face for myself; after years of disconnection and distraction, it’s time to start anew.

Five of Cups – I can’t think about the fact that I’ll be there without Robyn by my side as we had planned the year before she died.  Appreciate the joy of being there in the energy that we used to enjoy together.

The Sun – and a fun time will be had by all!

Ten of Cups – the sense of family and grand tradition that’s felt by all who attend.

And the card that was on the bottom of the deck was none other than the Queen of Wands, Robyn’s significator!

Dreaming Way ~ Moving On

I’ve been back-posting my daily draws from May because I love how the Dreaming Way Tarot reads, but this will be the last of that.  I could go on for all of May, but if I’m bored with my daily work drama, then everyone else must be as well!  🙂

Using the Dreaming Way Tarot, by Rome Choi and Kwon Shina, published by US Games Systems, I drew four cards for my day, May 6.  My new accountant started today and I wanted to see what the cards had to say about it.

1)  Main Energy for the Day – Page of Cups, Rx
2)  What is my Lesson for today? – Five of Cups
3)  What Insight can I gain? – Justice
4)  Advice Going into Tomorrow – Six of Pentacles, Rx

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The Page of Cups reversed – I’m feeling a bit like a fish out of water today.  I’ve never had the full responsibility of training someone from scratch before, and I feel as if I’m feeling my way, adjusting as I go.  A rather unsettling feeling…

What lesson can I see in the Five of Cups?  Because I just got this card a few days ago and saw it as representing me and my former co-worker, it’s hard to see it fresh for this reading.  And because said former co-worker has definitely left her mark on this job, I’m hesitant to dump everything, mess-to-be-cleaned-up and all, on the new co-worker.  Maybe the lesson is that I need to start fresh and not project former’s mistakes onto new…

Justice as the Insight, I see this as a reiteration that I need to give the new co-worker a fresh start.  Don’t let the sins of the former mar the efforts of the successor.  BE FAIR.

What advice for tomorrow?  Maybe this is just me projecting, but the Six of Pents reversed seems to be telling me not to give the new co-worker too much too fast.  There is so much that needs to be cleaned up, and so many different responsibilities for her to get a handle on, I don’t want to sabotage her, which giving her too much could do.  I want her to succeed.  🙂

Dreaming Way Daily for May 1

I don’t usually use reversals, but I thought I would today, reversals indicating an internal focus and uprights representing external forces.  Again using the Dreaming Way Tarot, by Rome Choi and Kwon Shina, published by US Games Systems, I drew three cards for today’s energies:

1)  Predominant Energy of the Day – Knight of Pentacles, Rx
2)  Lesson for Today – Eight of Wands
3)  Insights to Gain from my Lesson – Ace of Cups

2013-5-1-daily Dreaming Way

I see here that the Knight of Pents is reversed, which I associate with my internal need to feel stable and in control.  (And he did appear just a few days ago as that very thing.)

The Eight of Wands is upright, which tells me that the work will be coming at me fast and furious today (which it did, by the way).  And if I can work quickly, it stands to reason that I’ll get more accomplished.  🙂

I wasn’t really sure about this position, Insights to Gain from my Lesson, but I thought I would try it.  The Ace of Cups could possibly represent a feeling of accomplishment, and because the card is upright, that could mean that my accomplishments will actually be noticed by someone!  (Imagine that!)

And in grand fashion, Temperance appeared on the bottom of the deck, but in the reversed position.  So my question comes from a place inside of me that needs that balance in my life.

14-DW Rx

Maybe this card says “Balance” to me because it’s a need I feel so strongly.  Maybe not everyone needs the balance as I do?   Well, let’s see….  My birthday (Sep 23) is right on the cusp of Virgo and Libra, not to mention that my actual natal chart has four planets in Virgo and four in Libra.  Now, I don’t know much about astrology, but that seems to be pretty well balanced, and as a Libra (much of the time), I always need to see a balance in all things.  <shrug>  🙂

Dreaming Way ~ Time to Look on the Bright Side!

This week I’m using the Dreaming Way Tarot, by Rome Choi and Kwon Shina, published by US Games Systems, Inc.  There’s just something about the soft, nostalgic drawings in this deck that speak to me.  Although, I don’t care how juvenile the art may appear to some, this deck has been anything but gentle!

I asked, What energies do I need to be aware of today in one or any areas of my life?

Eight of Swords  ~  Five of Cups  ~  Ten of Swords

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Our company/my boss had to fire the accountant I was working with since she just wasn’t getting the job done quickly or accurately enough (and we gave her two years), so I see the Eight of Swords as me being trapped in my responsibilities left behind by this co-worker.  (The more I find, the more I wish we hadn’t let it go so long)  Too much to do and no way out, it feels like.

I see me and my former co-worker in the Five of Cups: her reckless juggling of her cups, letting things spill everywhere (and behind my back); me holding on to what’s left, cups held low by the very tips of my fingers, feeling as if I’m going to lose them at any second.

Ten of Swords – I guess I’ve finally hit rock bottom, so there’s no where to go from here but up, right?  🙂

I’m going to choose not to get depressed by this spread today, since I’m too aware of where I am.  We have a new accountant starting in a week, and I am feeling optimistic that given time, she’ll be a great improvement on this last person!

Dreaming Way Tarot

I received this deck, Dreaming Way Tarot by Rome Choi (art by Kwon Shina), back in September or October 2012, compliments of US Games Systems, as a review deck.  This is a deck I would probably not have purchased myself at first glance, so I am soooo glad it found its way to me!  Thank you, Lynn Araujo! 🙂

However, the time in my life being what it was (work, work, work, sleep, work, work, work, etc.) it got put in a drawer until it started calling to me.  And I gotta say, when a deck starts a callin’, I have a very hard time ignoring it!

I pulled three cards (and always the bottom card as well, which I position to the left as the underlying energies of the situation) asking “What do the cards want to tell me?”

2013-4-17 Dreaming Way Interview

I don’t usually do open spreads, but since I didn’t have a specific question at the time the deck was calling, I just let the cards talk to me.  And wow….  they spoke loud and clear.  First of all, Temperance is a special card for me, for better or worse.  From the time I started using the tarot, Temperance has consistently popped out of almost every deck I’ve used, as if to say, “You’re not hearing what I’m trying to tell you!”  In this spread, I say to her, “I hear you!!  But making a change in life is not always easy, you know?”

Temperance faces me straight on, feeling very “in my face” so to speak.  And her wings could be reminding me to lean more on my Higher Power for help.  She’s sandwiched between two tens, as if to say that it’s time to end this cycle I’m on.  Too much on my plate is making my family suffer.  The people/family in Ten of Pentacles is looking toward me, seeing me trying to pick up all of those wands in the Ten of Wands, wondering when they’re ever going to get my attention.  And of course, my back is to them, too busy to see that they are desperate for my attention.  (As if I didn’t feel badly enough…)

The Knight of Pentacles was on the bottom of the deck, ye ol’ stick-in-the-mud, looking on at the sad scene.  Or is that pentacle, representing his desire for a stable life, blocking his view?

These cards are sending me a clear message that my work has completely taken over my life.  It has gone from Three of Pentacles, to Eight of Pentacles, to a Ten of Wands, no more just about work and doing a good job, but it’s become all I can see anymore.  Thus an appearance from Temperance, my trusty personal alarm, telling me (AGAIN) that I’m out of balance.

By the way, yes, it is the end of June and I’m back posting, but I had so much fun with this deck I wanted to share.  I don’t always post on my blog, website, or message groups I’m on, but I always keep my handwritten tarot journal.  🙂

Separation Can Be Good for the Soul

Hi all!  I’m finally on my way back to the land of the living (and my kids are thrilled).  As I mentioned in my last post, work has just been crazy, and even though I was “seeing the light at the end of the tunnel” back in February, I’ve finally gotten to the point where I just NEED my life back.  I’m still behind, but after what happened with my boss, screw it.  They’ll just have to take what they get.

So here’s what happened.  I had only been back from vacation for 2 days (I took a week off and took the kids to North Carolina to see my mom) when I got an email from my boss asking me if it was true that I had only entered in one year of history from the old accounting system.  (The Powers-That-Be want me to enter in 10 years of history though I’ve been discouraged to do so by every single person on the implementation team).  I told him that it was true, that I am going to enter in the remaining years when I am caught up, and he got upset that he didn’t know this already. I went on to remind him that I DID let him know back when I made this decision.  He still insists that I never told him.  (My new catch phrase at work is turning into “Whatever.”)  More was said back and forth, but the point was that not only did I never get any kind of recognition for the thousands of hours I put into this project (or even a thank you), but I get a hard time for not being superhuman.  Well, that just PISSED ME OFF.

So, at this point, I’m done. I’m only going to do what I can do during work hours, and screw them.

I thought I would take out one of my comfort decks and do a Past-Present-Future reading about work.  I used my Illuminated Tarot, the Rider-Waite-Smith deck recolored by Carol Herzer, and drew the following cards:

Where have I been? ~ Queen of Wands
Where am I now? ~ Eight of Cups
What is my potential? ~ The Magician

This spread made total sense to me. I saw myself as a hard-working, successful, and respected business woman, able to take on heavy responsibility.  (Queen of Wands)

Eight of Cups – Upon finding out that I wasn’t seen that way by others, I am separating myself from this project emotionally; I am walking away from the extra effort I put forth since, let’s face it… nobody appreciated it, apparently.

The Magician – I’d like to say that this card is telling me that I can make whatever I want happen, but I’m sure there are many meanings this card can take. Magician can be a trickster, but since I didn’t use reversals in this spread, I’m not sure if that’s what this means. If it did, it could signify that I can trick co-workers into thinking that I’m still working hard but really I won’t any longer. Nah… I don’t think that’s what it means.

I think it means that the choices are mine to make. I can continue on in this job as is, I can ask either for what I feel is my due or for more responsibility, or I can look elsewhere. I’ve already been contacted from the company of our new software and she told me to send in my resume and she would forward it to the recruiters with her recommendation.  So I feel like I proved my worth to someone, just not the someone’s I was hoping to.  (Pathetic of me, I guess.)

Well, sorry for the droopy attitude, but this really set me off and truly upset me.  😦

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